I am moving this post here from my other blog because I am closing that blog and also because I want to add the following image:
In 1 Kings 19, we are told that Jezebel makes a death threat to Elijah:
Ahab told Jezebel all that Elijah had done, and how he had killed all the prophets with the sword. 2 Then Jezebel sent a messenger to Elijah, saying, “So may the gods do to me and more also, if I do not make your life as the life of one of them by this time tomorrow.” 3 Then he was afraid, and he arose and ran for his life and came to Beersheba, which belongs to Judah, and left his servant there. 4 But he himself went a day’s journey into the wilderness and came and sat down under a broom tree.
~ So basically Elijah runs from death. He does not want to die.
And he asked that he might die, saying, “It is enough; now, O Lord, take away my life, for I am no better than my fathers.” 5 And he lay down and slept under a broom tree.
~ Yet after his journey in the wilderness, he asks instead for death. Now, he wants to die.
So what does he really want? To die or not to die? What if God said, “Go back to Jezebel if you wan to die.”